i have nothing nice to write...actually, i am just here in front of my computer - again, for the nth time- killing myself with negative thoughts, with bad memories that grip my heart and squeeze life out of it...
i do not know...perhaps i was just born like this - sulking sulker...people thought i'm a happy person who giggles a lot, to the point that they find it irritating already....but when i am alone, i drift in to that another dimension, where the word happiness is centuries away....i don't want to be like this but my braincells are shortcircuiting each other that i find it hard to sort everything out....wish i have the courage to just smile and be happy and look ahead, instead of looking back...
uh well, this is another one of those unfinished blogs. i gotta join the preclosing meeting...how boring this life can be? kids, don't dream of being an auditor!
