Istambay lang

Oo, andito lang ako
Naghihintay para sayo
Hanggang sa huling katinuan
Ng aking pag-iisip,
Hanggang sa dulo
Ng walang hanggan.

Istambay lang

Oo, andito lang ako
Naghihintay para sayo
Hanggang sa huling katinuan
Ng aking pag-iisip,
Hanggang sa dulo
Ng walang hanggan.

Para sayo

Alam ko maligaya ka na ngayon
'Wag mag alala, masaya ako para sayo.
Kahit kelan hindi ko kinayang isipin na
Masasaktan or malulungkot ka lang.

Alam ko, hindi mo na ako naalala
Pero ayos lang, nakaraan nama'y di mahalaga
 Alam ko, di mo na ako kailangan,
Naintindihan ko yan na mas mabuti sya sayo

Alam kong para kayo sa isat-isa
Higit sa kanino man dito sa mundo
Masaya ako para sayo, nakamit mo na
Ang pinapangarap mo lang nuon

Masaya ako kasi masaya kang talaga
At bawat saglit kasama mo sya
Tama na sa akin yun, na sating dalawa
Ikaw ang lumigaya at masaya

Kung sakali mang kailangin mo ako
At tinakbuhan ka na buong mundo
Kung sakali lang naman na magkaganun
Andito lang ako, naghihintay para sayo.

Scar

So much for the notion of love.
not only was it ashes.
but even long after the ashes have scattered,
blown into nothing by the wind,

the scar from the burn remained.

And i had to see you both

June 21, 217 days ago from today (01 24 2012)

I had to see you both - again. God, I have forgotten how you look and now, my memory is refreshed. This reminded me of the love i have lost forever, the dream that will never be a reality.  I am saddened by this and deep inside, i am still that little girl hoping for a fairy tale life and love.

I have won a lot of battles, but i guess, this one is what i have lost badly.  However, i am good now and acceptance is already here.  my defeat. and i am no longer denying it.

thank you for giving me the experience to have loved greatly and to have lost in the worst way possible.  now, i am forgiving myself for this misfortune. may i live peacefully and hopefully, happily...someday.

thank you and goodbye.

the reincarnation of my depressed blog

i have nothing nice to write...actually, i am just here in front of my computer - again, for the nth time- killing myself with negative thoughts, with bad memories that grip my heart and squeeze life out of it...

i do not know...perhaps i was just born like this - sulking sulker...people thought i'm a happy person who giggles a lot, to the point that they find it irritating already....but when i am alone, i drift in to that another dimension, where the word happiness is centuries away....i don't want to be like this but my braincells are shortcircuiting each other that i find it hard to sort everything out....wish i have the courage to just smile and be happy and look ahead, instead of looking back...

uh well, this is another one of those unfinished blogs. i gotta join the preclosing meeting...how boring this life can be? kids, don't dream of being an auditor!